the sleeping giant


9:34am - belize time

in belize, we are riding in a caravan right now on our way to ziplining & cave tubing. the scenery on this trip is so beautiful, just stunning. so much greenery, palm trees, random horses on the side of the road. it’s insane, insanely gorgeous.

a few minutes ago we passed some mountains in the distance & when you stare at them you see a figure of a man. our driver said they call him “the sleeping giant.” 

i snapped some photos (one posted below) & then i kept staring at him & thinking how appropriate to see something like this on this particular trip.

last weekend my depression decided to fight its way back into my space. i had been doing fairly well, even with the changes of moving a few weeks ago. but alas, here came the roaring giant that is depression. sunday i spent the day on my couch crying. monday & tuesday i slept so much, feeling numb & feeling everything. it is exhausting & really takes a toll on my body, draining any energy i have. 

but yet, here are we, my boyfriend & i, in one of the most beautiful places i’ve ever seen in my life. in the quiet moments i feel it, it’s lingering. 

but while exploring our resort yesterday & speaking to so many new (super kind) people, i felt my head lifting. 

i have been praying for God to conquer my depression, i literally asked Him to stomp on it, squish it dead. and i believe He will.

the timing of this trip probably seems to most that it was planned because today is valentine’s day, but it wasn’t. this day just happened to fall in between the dates that worked for us. 

don’t get me wrong, the resort is VERY romantic & i am glad to have that for babe & i. it just wasn’t our sole purpose of being here. for christmas we decided we wanted to gift others what they wanted, and what we wanted most is to travel more while we can. so here we are.

my sleeping giant may not be as beautiful as the one i just witnessed, but my God is bigger & absolutely beautiful, so i am believing in Him that these ashes will be turned into all things beautiful. and regardless of how long it lasts, no matter how many times it comes back, i will keep praising my God the whole way through, for He is ever faithful to me. 

i feel peaceful right now simply from just letting these thoughts go from my head to my writing. 

i am excited for today’s adventure & depression can kiss my tush.